My OCD stories

My solution to My OCDs

❗Please read my pervious post for this post to make a little more sense.

With all the OCDs I had I eventually managed to to figure out how to stop nearly all of them. Everything from my tapping OCD to my two step OCD, it did not matter what OCD it was this worked for all of them.

Let me explain.

I started to realise whenever an OCD occurred I would always act on that OCD straight away. I had no self control, I used to rely on the tapping OCD for nearly everything I did. I started to work on my self by self healing and re-evaluating everything in my life. I researched how to have a clear mindset, not let you anxiety overcome you and I looked at what motivated me in life. I started doing things which made me happy and surrounded myself around people who made me happy.

Because I started to notice the OCD was fed by negativity and having bad thoughts. In order for me to move forward, I had to cancel out the negatives from my life. For many people this could be bad influences in life, alcohol etc. However, in my case the problem was me. I made things complicated for myself by overthinking as it made me do my OCD as a way of helping myself into thinking “By doing this OCD the outcome of whatever I about to face or do will be better”.

After this reoccurring trapped feeling I started to realise that I allowed it to happen and was relying on this as a way of creating good things in my life. This was not the way to live and instead I stared to get closer to God. I know you’re probably thinking here we go again another saved by God story, but it’s not. I wanted to find ways to overcome it because I just wanted to feel normal and was frustrated with all my anxiety and OCD. I came to this conclusion as I was late one evening and a friend was waiting for me and due to my OCD I was late. He was not happy and it was not nice making him wait. I started to realise how bad the OCD was and how controlling it was and how it started to affect the people around me. That was when I said to myself “Enough is enough I need to figure out a way to stop this.”

I am not very religious, even though I try to be, but it’s much bigger than that. You don’t have to be religious I just use it as it worked for me. Getting to the point I started to rely on God for my good outcomes and whenever an OCD trigger occurred or I was having a bad thought, which could trigger more OCDs. No matter how bad it got I said to myself I will try to have a good day stay positive and let God handle the rest.

Now the bigger picture is not religion it’s more about letting the universe and destiny do its job. If you really think about it you have no clue about the future the only power you have is to be the best you and love yourself, have confidence and stay positive in order to go through anything and come out the other end still intact.

There where times I had bad days, but those bad days were much better without my OCD. It was a big improvement! However, it’s not easy to just change everything over night. I still did some OCDs, it’s like smoking you have to cut it down slowly. This eventually helped me and in present time I barely haven OCD or anxiety.

I’ll tell you a recent story where I felt anxiety and felt like doing my OCD to stop it from happening. My dad recently got sick he was sent to the hospital my brain instantly went “Oh no, this is your fault if you did your OCD he would have been fine.” I know it sounds stupid, right, but that’s what my brain was telling me. My thoughts started to tell me to do my OCD, this could be tapping on things or stepping in and out of the room in order for my dads situation to be better and by some chance doing my OCD would help the situation.

I could feel my anxiety building up inside but I took a deep breath and said to myself “I am in control I need to stay positive and call home and be supportive, be there with family”. I stayed calm and did not use my OCD. I even made a prayer to God to look over my dad and keep him in good health.

A few hours went by and the doctor tells us the blood test results and the cause for why he was admitted into the hospital was due to his age he had a bad stomach congestion and a lot of gas was trapped, which caused him a lot of pain and that he would be fine if he just took some laxatives. His blood test results came out perfectly fine.

I realised, all this time ever since I was a little child I would let these thought and urges get in the way of me living my life. It took me a lot of my life to realise that things which happen good or bad are not due to my OCD and when bad things happen it’s not my fault and when good things happen I actually deserve them and it’s not because my OCD allowed them to happen.

That being said I know I am much stronger now. A lot of people struggle with OCD and I would be more than happy to talk and help find a solution as I did not have anyone to talk to and I know if I did I might have been better a long time ago. Instead it took me a long time but I just talked to myself to come up with a solution to my OCD.

If this doesn’t help you in any way, shape or form I can promise you there is definitely a way to make this better. You have to be honest with your self and take a leap of faith. I know it’s very difficult to even try stopping your OCD.

I know whatever OCD you might have there is always a solution to each and every OCD no matter how bad it is and no matter how trapped you feel. I never had anyone to talk about this with and I felt trapped for about 13 years. This platform has given me the chance to express myself. If you can relate or know people going through similar situations, I can promise and reassure you I have found a solution that has helped me in my day to day life. This solution came from 13 years of experience with OCD. You are not alone and if you wish to contact me please contact me on ask.millennial@hotmail.com. Hopefully my solution could help find your solution.

If you want to get professional help you can get psychological therapy normally cognitive behavioural therapy or you can get medication such as antidepressants called selective serotonin repute inhibitors (SSRIs).

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My OCD stories

How OCD leads to depression and anxiety

❗Please read my pervious post for this post to make a little more sense.

My OCD has made feel low, sad and not wanting do anything which I have mentioned in my previous posts.

Let me explain.

At a time it was so bad that I would not want to wear the same clothing if I had a bad day in them. This triggered my anxiety and made me think I would have another bad day if I wear the same clothing.

I would also try avoid watching TV, use my phone, get up to get a drink or go toilet. This is because everything I would do on a daily basis triggered my OCD. This got me in a state of depression as I feel really anxious, sad, scared, frustrated, confused and these feelings made me want to spend all day sleeping in bed.

When I was in school my OCD would even affect my school work. For example, we did our assignments on the computer and I started doing my OCD on the computer keyboard by entering letters then deleting them again. This affected my work and it consumed a lot of my time. It made me feel so low that I didn’t even feel like doing the work.

When I had good days my OCD would become even worse because my thoughts would make me think if I wanted more of those good days I must do more of my OCD.

This was a dark time for me as I had no one to talk to because I felt no one would understand me and I was scared they would think I was crazy. Therefore, I suppressed it and kept my feelings hidden. I felt I was broken and these triggers where really a dark cloud over my head, it affected my mood and my personality. It felt like I was trapped in a small complex box which was submerged in the bottom of a big dark hole. The interior of the box had points and I could not move otherwise I would get hurt.

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I felt like this

You do not have to suffer like I did talking about it helps and its much more common than you may think everyone has their own weird OCD.

But like i said it’s all about will power the more negativity you feed your brain it just encourages the OCD even more.

I know whatever OCD you might have there is always a solution to each and every OCD no matter how bad it is and no matter how trapped you feel. I never had anyone to talk about this with and I felt trapped for about 13 years. This platform has given me the chance to express myself. If you can relate or know people going through similar situations, I can promise and reassure you I have found a solution that has helped me in my day to day life. This solution came from 13 years of experience with OCD. You are not alone and if you wish to contact me please contact me on ask.millennial@hotmail.com. Hopefully my solution could help find your solution.

If you want to get professional help you can get psychological therapy normally cognitive behavioural therapy or you can get medication such as antidepressants called selective serotonin repute inhibitors (SSRIs).

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